Looking forward to 2019

New Years Eve 2018. The new year 2019 is just an hour and a half away and I need just one more post to past last year"s amount of 42. I have several underway, but none ready for publishing. I have done my Christmas stuff a song and a poem if you haven't seen them. As for 2018 I feel that I have grown as a writer and look forward to writing even more. I am even thinking of trying some of the writing apps to earn some money just to start out. Who know it might just lead to something. One is aloud to dream. But as for this post I am just doing some resolutions for the new year. Stuff to improve my submissive side.

First I am starting with the goal of shedding 2 lbs a week this whole year. That is a goal that is small and do able, and if successful I will reach a more pleasant image of myself.

2: Comply with my doctor and change my eating to remove foods known to cause inflammation. Which should encourage me to be more active and moving more.

3: Reward myself if successful in losing 70 LBS with a visit to a Dominatrix

4: Provide a monthly post to update my progress. This will keep me accountable to somebody.

5: Allow myself to purchase clothes for myself. I always put the needs of others ahead of mine. So to increase my wardrobe from 4 shirts, 2 pair of pants. 7 boxes. 12 soaks, 1 pair of boots. 1 winter coat and a pair of gloves.

6: I want to spend more time chatting to others interested in BDSM.

7: Go to a munch or two, meet the local crowd that may lead to some play partners.

8: I purchased a vibrating egg that is controlled by a smartphone. It would be fun to find someone interested in controlling me with it.

9: I need to get myself some actual toys. Cuffs, gag, blindfold, clamps, a plug, paddle, tens unit and maybe even some smart padlocks for some LDR bondage with someone. Anybody interested.

10: Too connect with a particular Mistress to finally submit my mind into her hypnotic slave with hypnosis.

I guess that is it. Kind of looks like a Letterman top 10 list. I do hope that I can relie on you guys to keep my nose to the grind stone, and please don't let me get of scot-free if I fail. If I do I am submitting myself to the comments of this blog. Remind me that I am a sub to this blog, and your comments are my Mistress. Midnight nears and this needs to be posted, So HAPPY NEW. See you in 2019.

Some pictures used in my post

Kinky 12 days of Xmas

On the first day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Some time in the corner on my knees.

On the second day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Two Ben Wa balls and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the third day of Christmas, my Mistress gave me. Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the fourth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the fifth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Fiiiiive pretty slaves.
Four bondage cuffs,
Three Butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the sixth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Six face slappings.
Fiiiive pretty slaves,
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the seventh day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Seven urethral soundings.
Six face slappings,
Fiiiive pretty slaves,
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the eighth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Eight hours of milking.
Seven urethral soundings,
Six face slappings,
Fiiiive pretty slaves,
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the ninth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Nine nipple clampings.
Eight hours of milking,
Seven urethral soundings,
Six face slappings.
Fiiiive pretty slaves.
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the tenth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Ten frustrating edgings.
Nine nipple clampings,
Eight hours of milking,
Seven urethral soundings,
Six face slappings,
Fiiiive pretty slaves,
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the eleventh day of  Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Eleven ass whippings.
Ten frustrating edgings,
Nine nipple clampings,
Eight hours of milking,
Seven urethral soundings,
Six face slappings,
Fiiiive pretty slaves,
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls, and some time in the corner on my knees.

On the twelfth day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me. Twelve mind-blowing orgasms.
Eleven ass whippings,
Ten frustrating edgings,
Nine nipple clampings,
Eight hours of milking,
Seven urethral soundings,
Six face slappings,
Fiiiive pretty slaves.
Four bondage cuffs,
Three butt plugs,
Two Ben Wa balls,
and some time in the corner on my knees.

For another story follow this link: https://slaveallan68.blogspot.com/2018/12/a-christmas-poem-for-2018.html

A kinky night before Christmas

Once again it is the night before Christmas and all through the house, not a creature was stirring. Not even a slave dressed as a mouse.

Mistress worked hard all day preparing her toys, so she could be on Santa's list like all the other good girls and boys.

Mistress has all her clamps and whips and gags at the ready. For dear old Santa who has been visiting quite steady.

From the shadows, Mistress waits for her elf with a stern frown. For Santa is late coming to her hometown.

But she did not have to wait long, before seeing Santa's new team of eight beautiful ladies pulling his sleigh, and Santa sitting on top singing a Christmas song. The team wore not a stitch, and Santa had them all gaged to ensure that none of them would bitch.

He landed the sleigh gently on the roof. Jumping down he grabbed his bag, some flowers and a bottle that says it's a hundred proof.

He secured his team with some rope to ensure that they would be there when he was ready. Then down the chimney, he came hoping Mistress would be wearing her teddy.

"Your late" Mistress scolded stepping out from a shadow. "Sorry Mistress" he replied. "The team insisted on stopping in the meadow." "I don't want your excuses, you fool" she said. "Now get out of those clothes and lay face down across that stool."

Santa rapidly strips, then laid across the bench, and grabbing it legs with a nervous clench. Mistress moved faster than an elf,  as she grabbed some rope from a storage shelf.

She then proceeded to laugh as she ties old St Nick down. While using a taunting voice and saying "Now Santa why that big frown?"

 Santa would have replied if it was not for the gag. Mistress just laugh as she opened his bag.

"So what fun toys did you bring me today? They better be good, or your ass is going to pay."

First, she pulled out a new paddle, followed by a black bridle and topping it all off a shiny new saddle.

Next came a length of reins and some eye blinders and did I mention there are some new arm binders.

 The next thing she pulled out made Mistress mood sail, she smiled as she held up a butt plug attached to a tail.

 Mistress exclaims "A new pony for me! Oh, Santa you have made me so wet and horny." Wasting no time she grabbed the tail and in one solid motion, she had Santa impaled. Mistress then removed the gag and attached the bridle. Then she buckled the saddle because she did not plan to sit idle.

The blinders came next in her master plan. Once they were in place she had to make a run to the can. Upon her return, she looked at her pony and the whole sight did make her quite horny.

Now keeping with the scene Mistress pull on her boot and her spurs, which made Santa try to curse out some colorful slurs. Next Mistress pulled on a small black mask and a ten-gallon white hat, then she climbed onto Santa's back for her turn at bat.

Sitting high in the saddle Mistress leaned back and hit Santa's ass with her new paddle. Mistress then shouted out with glee "I know it is Christmas, but Santa you will have to stay." Then holding her hat high above her head. She dug her spurs in and yelled "Hi Ho, Silver, away!" 

Now with Mistress and Santa having fun at play. I take upon myself to say "Merry Christmas to all. And to all a good day."

And here is a song for the holidays: https://slaveallan68.blogspot.com/2018/12/kinky-12-days-of-xmas.html

To read something similar https://slaveallan68.blogspot.com/2018/06/a-spring-poem.html

It ends at 32

Well, it ended at 32 days. The daily edging is over. I fail to make it to six weeks. I stopped because I fell sick last week and missed a day of edging. You see my doctor prescribed a new medication and it had an adverse effect on me which kept me from edging sadly. I don't know why but the side effect made all my nerves super hyper. My groin was already hypersensitive, so the added intensity was unbearable. The ache seems to start of my penis and bore through into my rectum. I was sick and super aroused at the same time. I fought the urge to masturbate for almost two days but finally had to give in. The pulsating through the nerves in my groin, scrotum, and the anus was relentless. It was the medication making me feel like this but I figured if I released the ache in that area. I am going to spare the details of the act of jerking off. I will say that after a month of edging that release would be quick. Nothing would be farther from the truth. For some cruel reason, I could not keep my thoughts on the task. My mind would jump from a fantasy to a bill or an errand that had to be done. It took close to an hour to coach that orgasm from me. The release was intense, but after a month of edging, it was less satisfying than I hope. Probably because it was produced form a nipple orgasm. I just rubbed my groin until I went off.

So I guess for all my effort through the month I will have to settle for the less than explosive orgasm that I was expecting. Oh if you're wondering why don't I just start over, that's easy to answer. I did this challenge alone and it took a lot to contain myself each day. I feel that I could not be that discipline a second time. I figure for me to edge like that again. I would need to have somebody to answer to every day. Maybe one day someone will grab my leash and have me try again. I just won't attempt it alone again.

Let's try this again. A second stab at it
https://slaveallan68.blogspot.com/2019/05/i-need-help-for-new-edging-challenge.html